You’ll have noticed
You gave me a book about trauma for my birthday
I am older now
Here on the edge of really old
Not just the old age ascribed to me by younger people of an age I once thought old when I was young
I am older now
My memory arcs back
An iron bridge over the raging waters
The last six minutes gone
Over sixty years between the steep banks
That carried so much down
To a dark ocean where stinging, tearing creatures of my own manufacture churn the surface.
Back across the rusting bridge THE DAY awaits
Snippets and visions have followed me forward; jig-saw pieces in my pocket fingered absentmindedly
And more often now intrude
Back across the rusting bridge THE DAY awaits
Any surrender to the temptation to focus
Will reassemble the picture
The events experienced
The events imagined
The circle of hurt
The unlooked for lives lived thereafter
There the snippets go again and I am stopped
I have no time for this
I must cook the pizzas
You set my life and the damage I have done in context for my birthday